Well, juz got back home.. so while im coolin maself down, mite aswell blog bout ma tots while i can still remember em..
Life is unfair.. its nt tt ive juz gota noe tt, bt im juz sayin it out.. u put much effort in ur werk, u do e best u can, bt u dun seem to be getin a good return or even a pat in e back fer ur effort..
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Well, our supposedly dikir performance wud be on dis saturdae at HCI.. ofcourse, most of us r feelin e pressure.. but i dun undastand teachers.. especially e ones incharge of us.. i mean the ONe.. we practice hard, screaming our butts off, and she din get e clothes for us to perform wif.. we also din hav instruments to prac wif, until dis week.. THAT, too, we dun hav e complete set of instruments to prac wif for now.. since i was in kompang, pantang sekali *means it shud neva be done or shud be avoided at all costs, i tink* tt we perf w/o proper clothing.. or in otha words, costumes.. i mean.. if ure a group, e least u shud do is to wear e same set of uniforms so tt peeps can identify u.. but we dun hav e proper uniforms, coz our teacher din order it fer us and ders not enuf tym to order now.. wen she's infrnt us, she says tt she wan us to perf.. but she din even supervise
atleast ONE practice session and wen we do show her wad we've learnt, she say tt its
NO GOOOOD!!! i mean. . . .
SHUT UP,
bitch! and den we went out of skul coz its closing tym.. so we went ova to a multipurpose hall unda a block to cont prac.. as we practiced, another tcher came down *aparently she lived nearby* and said tt she had called our teacher in charge and she said tt she din noe tt we're supposed to prac dere and she wantd us to stop practicing.. i said
WE NEED E PRAC!!!!! i mean.. even if we're creatin noise n hav e public complainin, i wud rather hav tt den we makin a fool of ourselves wen we perform badly at HCI..... its lyk we're sacrifising our tym n e tchers dun even care.. even e one hu wanted us to perf in e 1st place!
I wun b suprised if we dun even hav transport go get der..
ARGHH!!!
Okay, so dose were external factors.. internally, i dunno y sum guys still dun cum for prac altho e perf is on sat.. dey havnt even learn e instruments that dey're supposed to play.. and our instructor.. well, im not tryin to say anytin but my voice is loud.. i giv wad i can everytym we prac.. but wen e rest dun open deir mouth, she tell US our mistake but look at ME as if its my mistake tt my voice is too soft.. and wen she "compliments" me, which, btw, looks lyk e total opposite, she told me not to be 2 happy.. rrriiiiiiteeeee........~
i will not involve maself in anymore MCS activities coz its not benefitting.. to call it a sacrifise wun do coz its not tt u dun get anytin back, but u get negative treatement from e parties askin u to help em.. in malay, ders a proverb.. to let a trapped dog loose.. bleargh.. 4get bout it..
Okay, so now bout my dae.. we hadta buy 2 10yr series 2dae.. phys n chem.. so tt equals to our bags bein heavier.. so along wif e hockey sticks, its more burden for me.. i tink ive shrunken.. yup.. 2 dea had hockey too.. practiced.. i tink ive gotten back ma skills from sec1 altho its not much.. hahaa.. ahhh.. i still remember dose days.. i was almost sent for training to be a keeper.. hahaa.. but i hadta quit coz ive had otha ccas.. dang~ anywae, mr koh said tt e new coach is e BP coach.. so mite b able to get him to make me e keeper.. hahaa.. juz now we split up into grps and played a match.. i did my part to push e ball up and also in defending.. aft e match, jessica said tt i was guud! well, mayb shes juz tryin to make me feel beta.. hahaa.. also, nazreen said tt i hav natural skills n ma defendin was guud! well, mayb hes tryin to make me feel good too.. ahhahaa.. so i really dunno bout ma perf.. hahaa..
Kk.. since little, i hav been getin dreams.. i mean every one hav dreams, but mine, sum r old dreams which r repeated randomly.. i dunno y dese dreams kip repeating emselves.. but luckily, some of e uncomfortable dreams hav been erased frm ma mind.. dreams which make u feel feelings which dun exist on earth.. some dreams hav sequels but u wun noe wen e next episode is gona be.. hmmm.. dreams r weird.. its a weird world.. or mayb, its juz me!
